2023.11.11

A horrific nightmare that came true

I was standing again seeing the truth before me.

Nothing would alter, as I had anticipated.

Before I could move, I could feel the rejection in my thoughts and body.

This time, I was aware that it was merely a habit he was craving.

Not that he loved me or cared.

Just a diversion to take his mind from his hurt.

Playing with the emotions I used to have for him.

Though it was much nicer in my mind back then, the thought of him made my heart hurt, and I could feel his uncertainty and unease in my soul.